Post by behindsapphireeyes on Jun 14, 2014 14:54:27 GMT -6
Hey y'all!
The name's Chris and I'm a 21 year old gay guy. I believe that my inner core is expression. I am very artistic and therefore, I show myself through painting, drawing, writing, acting, graphic designing, and singing. It also applies to me being passionate as a lover and a person. I am Expression. I have different messages to send out and that is what is unique about me and what sparks my personality to glow. And while I may be shy, the messages I send; people will understand and therefore understand me.
When I was four, I was diagnosed with Dyspraxia, which is a neurological disorder throughout the brain that results in life-long impaired motor, memory, judgment, processing, and other cognitive skills. Dyspraxia also impacts the immune and central nervous systems. Add that to the fact I'm gay equates to a heck of a lot of bullying being thrown my way. I actually have been bullied relentless when I was in school, which resulted in me become home schooled. Well, that wasn't the only reason, the other reason was, because the teachers didn't know how to teach me. Being different and having a not so well known disorder in the 90's to early 2000's didn't help in the slightest. So, my childhood wasn't the easiest and most of it I don't remember, because I have blocked it out. I've walled it up so greatly that even when I try to remember it I cannot, but I suppose it is good that it is locked away.
Anyways, I joined this site in the hopes of finding support and friendships. Why? Because where I live there isn't a LGBT community. There isn't a support group or anything and there's barely any gay people and the ones that are here are either taken, married, unattractive, or uninterested in me. So, far I've met a total of 10 gay people and one one them is my best friend who doesn't even live in this state! I'm not sure what y'all can do for me. I am not having any bullying problems anymore, thankfully, but I also barely have any friends. I'm an introvert and I'm extremely shy to the point where I am almost antisocial. So, if y'all can help me get out of my head and be myself in public that would be awesome! Also, from time to time I simply slip into a depressive state, which is usually the fault of my emotions breaking the dam or the loneliness getting to me.
Well, thanks for reading this novella of a post and I hope we all can become friends!
-Chris xoxo
The name's Chris and I'm a 21 year old gay guy. I believe that my inner core is expression. I am very artistic and therefore, I show myself through painting, drawing, writing, acting, graphic designing, and singing. It also applies to me being passionate as a lover and a person. I am Expression. I have different messages to send out and that is what is unique about me and what sparks my personality to glow. And while I may be shy, the messages I send; people will understand and therefore understand me.
When I was four, I was diagnosed with Dyspraxia, which is a neurological disorder throughout the brain that results in life-long impaired motor, memory, judgment, processing, and other cognitive skills. Dyspraxia also impacts the immune and central nervous systems. Add that to the fact I'm gay equates to a heck of a lot of bullying being thrown my way. I actually have been bullied relentless when I was in school, which resulted in me become home schooled. Well, that wasn't the only reason, the other reason was, because the teachers didn't know how to teach me. Being different and having a not so well known disorder in the 90's to early 2000's didn't help in the slightest. So, my childhood wasn't the easiest and most of it I don't remember, because I have blocked it out. I've walled it up so greatly that even when I try to remember it I cannot, but I suppose it is good that it is locked away.
Anyways, I joined this site in the hopes of finding support and friendships. Why? Because where I live there isn't a LGBT community. There isn't a support group or anything and there's barely any gay people and the ones that are here are either taken, married, unattractive, or uninterested in me. So, far I've met a total of 10 gay people and one one them is my best friend who doesn't even live in this state! I'm not sure what y'all can do for me. I am not having any bullying problems anymore, thankfully, but I also barely have any friends. I'm an introvert and I'm extremely shy to the point where I am almost antisocial. So, if y'all can help me get out of my head and be myself in public that would be awesome! Also, from time to time I simply slip into a depressive state, which is usually the fault of my emotions breaking the dam or the loneliness getting to me.
Well, thanks for reading this novella of a post and I hope we all can become friends!
-Chris xoxo
and I used to be the shyest person ever, I still am shy just not a much. What I did might seem a bid terrifying and believe me it were. A few years ago I went to a language school in Germany for 2 weeks, I didn't know anybody, I didn't even Speak the language I went because I wanted to learn German properly but also because I love to travel. Two weeks later I came back and I was a completely different person. I had been forced to interact with strangers and it made a tiny hole in my shell. In the following years I have been forcing myself to interact and pretend that I'm not shy and it has helped so much! My best friend whom I met almost 2 years ago was even surprised when I told her how shy I had been and still am. 
