Post by caz on Dec 15, 2014 4:09:19 GMT -6
Hi,
This is probably just going to be rambling so here we go.
So I don't know the specific term for what I am. I don't know anything really but basically I am attracted to girls and guys but I don't have a preference. No one but a select few friends know this. I would say a max of about 10. Anyways I kind of always knew that I liked both genders( i am a girl btw). I think I first realized this when I was about 9 or 10. I have always been kind of shy about these types of things and LITERALLY NONE OF MY FAMILY KNOWS. I was raised in a "christian-ish" home and both my dad and step mom sort of hate homosexuals. I did get caught kissing a girl. They didn't really talk to me for a while then sort of just erased it from their memory. Once when my dad and I were arguing about me hanging out with gay girls...I said and I quote "what if I was gay" and he literally starting praying and "rebuking" the devil from inside me. Yeaaa... I no longer live with my dad. I am 18 and I live with my grandfather and he is a ordained minister so yea he also hates homosexuality with a passion. I literally just have this weight on my shoulders for years now and I just want everyone to know but I don't want them to judge me. I was thinking about coming out openly when I go away to college but yea. I am terrified that people will just say I'm confused because I don't have a preference. and alot of my friends and family are religious so I don't want to be shunned.
scared.
Caz feel free to email @ cazz.c@aol.com
This is probably just going to be rambling so here we go.
So I don't know the specific term for what I am. I don't know anything really but basically I am attracted to girls and guys but I don't have a preference. No one but a select few friends know this. I would say a max of about 10. Anyways I kind of always knew that I liked both genders( i am a girl btw). I think I first realized this when I was about 9 or 10. I have always been kind of shy about these types of things and LITERALLY NONE OF MY FAMILY KNOWS. I was raised in a "christian-ish" home and both my dad and step mom sort of hate homosexuals. I did get caught kissing a girl. They didn't really talk to me for a while then sort of just erased it from their memory. Once when my dad and I were arguing about me hanging out with gay girls...I said and I quote "what if I was gay" and he literally starting praying and "rebuking" the devil from inside me. Yeaaa... I no longer live with my dad. I am 18 and I live with my grandfather and he is a ordained minister so yea he also hates homosexuality with a passion. I literally just have this weight on my shoulders for years now and I just want everyone to know but I don't want them to judge me. I was thinking about coming out openly when I go away to college but yea. I am terrified that people will just say I'm confused because I don't have a preference. and alot of my friends and family are religious so I don't want to be shunned.
scared.
Caz feel free to email @ cazz.c@aol.com