moving on

Kimi,

I know what you are going through. Trust me. I know this feeling all to well. I had a long time relationship that ended very poorly. I was BEYOND in love with him. He was my everything. When we split up I had no idea what to do with myself. I, much like yourself, went through the phase where I told him I was hurting, and wanted him back. Just to have him tell me that oh well. Life goes on. I have had the nights where I didn't even want to shower because all I could do was think of how he and I use to shower together. I had months of the nights where I cry myself to sleep. And I know you do not want to hear this, but it gets better. All of those feelings go away. They took mine months, some feelings even took years to go away. But each day it got easier, and easier. In the end, I ended up (Many years later) finding someone who made me forget the past even happened. He is the reason it never worked out with the other guy. He is the reason I had to go through all those nights of pain... To know that now that I have him... He will NEVER make me go through any pain. All that this breakup tells you is that you were NOT meant to be with him. He was not your soulmate. I know you do not want to hear it... But its true! Trust me, as much as you are hurting now... It will get better. It will take time, but trust me, I have been there. I know Rae has been there too. We are both living proof that the low spot you are going through right now will go away! And we will be here with you every step of the way. When you are having a rough time reach out to us. Post here in the forums, email us, or you can even call, or text us. Contact information can be found here. We are here for you. 24/7. We do care, and it will get better. Never be afraid to pick up the phone and call, or text us. That's what we are here for. Stay strong! It will get better, and we will help!
~Matt

We do have a dog toghther tho and he wants excess witch I ll give our dog loves him and he does love that dog only thing I think he does love but I wont be droppin the dog off my dad will be im not ready to see him he ll talk me round to stayin then act like nothing is wrong be all over me nope not doin that not this time I need to move on as hard as it is I ll ride this storm out get to the end

Im gettin out the circle we always seem to be in I know its unhealthy for me. Long as I remember i am strong Im not how I was 4yrs back with him I dont need him I need me and me happy or I wont work and I ll get ill yes im 30 im gettin older but I dont need a man right now need me and myself and the people that do love me round me ive been kicked down so many times by people. People I thought would never hurt me and have I have always got back up dented yes but not beaten. I can do it again whats one more time wont hurt but I need to get this in my head I still dont want to go out and bein asleep dreamin is nicer then awake and my bipolar isnt helpin. At the mo my poor dad gets my full anger and bless him he puts up with it been docs bout it im run down vitamins is what I need not helpin tho and I miss that tight cuddle and I hate puttin my problems on people im the sorter I listen to theres I sort them out they dont need mine to. So right now I feel very alone. Ever been in a very busy place but felt like ur the only one there. Thats how feel I need to stop wastin my days sleepin but my mojo has gone im empty