Post by thepaintedface on Aug 31, 2014 22:09:21 GMT -6
Hey everyone,
My name is Char. I have never posted on this forum before, and normally I would have introduced myself first, but I had something pressing on my mind. It isn't the sort of thing I can discuss with any of my friends, for various reasons. I suppose a bit of background is in order, but I will keep it brief for now. I am a 22 year old, female sexed person. I am at least genderqueer and possibly trans; which is a topic for another day. As far as I have seen, I am attracted to people regardless of sex or gender. I grew up in an extremely religious, gay-hating household, and have only been able to fully explore my sexuality in the past few years.I have been in a serious relationship with a fantastic woman for about two years now. I love her with all of my heart. She has been supportive of me through all sorts of things, has provided for me when my jobs haven't been good enough, and I know she loves me. We don't fight, we get along about almost everything, and the relationship is stronger than any I have ever had. But, as all people and relationships have flaws, we have one big one.
I am a very sexual and openly affectionate person. My partner, on the other hand, is a more reserved woman, and is frequently too anxious or tired to enjoy sex. That is fine, but frustrating, especially when even holding hands is too much for her.
Recently, I was away at an event for a week end without her, and there was a party. There was a man who was fun and energetic, and danced with everyone in the room. But as soon as he saw me, he pulled me onto the dancefloor and gave me all of his attention. I don't consider myself traditionally attractive, and have had bad self esteem in the past, but he found me irresistible and his passion made my own passion spark like it hasn't in a long time. We ended up sneaking off to his room and fooling around in his hotel shower as much as we could without waking his friends. It was incredibly fun and easy, and he enjoyed myself and my body exactly as it is. We said goodbye soon after, and probably won't see each other again.
So, I don't feel guilty, as my partner has said she doesn't really mind me having sex with other people, but this is the first time I have done it. What worries me, is how fun it was. I enjoyed myself more than I have in ages.
What does this mean for my relationship? That a stranger can make me feel so sexy, when the woman I love sometimes makes me feel lonely?
My name is Char. I have never posted on this forum before, and normally I would have introduced myself first, but I had something pressing on my mind. It isn't the sort of thing I can discuss with any of my friends, for various reasons. I suppose a bit of background is in order, but I will keep it brief for now. I am a 22 year old, female sexed person. I am at least genderqueer and possibly trans; which is a topic for another day. As far as I have seen, I am attracted to people regardless of sex or gender. I grew up in an extremely religious, gay-hating household, and have only been able to fully explore my sexuality in the past few years.I have been in a serious relationship with a fantastic woman for about two years now. I love her with all of my heart. She has been supportive of me through all sorts of things, has provided for me when my jobs haven't been good enough, and I know she loves me. We don't fight, we get along about almost everything, and the relationship is stronger than any I have ever had. But, as all people and relationships have flaws, we have one big one.
I am a very sexual and openly affectionate person. My partner, on the other hand, is a more reserved woman, and is frequently too anxious or tired to enjoy sex. That is fine, but frustrating, especially when even holding hands is too much for her.
Recently, I was away at an event for a week end without her, and there was a party. There was a man who was fun and energetic, and danced with everyone in the room. But as soon as he saw me, he pulled me onto the dancefloor and gave me all of his attention. I don't consider myself traditionally attractive, and have had bad self esteem in the past, but he found me irresistible and his passion made my own passion spark like it hasn't in a long time. We ended up sneaking off to his room and fooling around in his hotel shower as much as we could without waking his friends. It was incredibly fun and easy, and he enjoyed myself and my body exactly as it is. We said goodbye soon after, and probably won't see each other again.
So, I don't feel guilty, as my partner has said she doesn't really mind me having sex with other people, but this is the first time I have done it. What worries me, is how fun it was. I enjoyed myself more than I have in ages.
What does this mean for my relationship? That a stranger can make me feel so sexy, when the woman I love sometimes makes me feel lonely?
