Post by generation why on Oct 13, 2014 22:34:10 GMT -6
Hello, there! I'm a stranger on anything LGBT at this point, but I wanted to get some insight.
Recently, I've been hanging out with a healthy mix of gay and straight folks and I must admit that I couldn't relate to anything that the straight girls were talking about (nor a few things one of my good gay guy friends said). For one, they were all fawning over this one kid's muscular body, but I didn't get aroused when I saw him. Also, when they mention certain people at school who are hot or attractive, I always end up saying, "Really?? Him??" and then realized that there's nobody who I agree is hot.
In middle school, I had a lot of straight crushes, but in high school it's been both. I go back and forth between both and just girls for some reason (I don't know why it changed). I met a bisexual girl through theatre rehearsals and I ended up really liking her and hoping that she liked me, too, but nothing ever developed from that. I am rather unladylike in my ways often times (uncouth, as my mom likes to say), but I feel as if some girls are just like this sometimes.
I have also sort of started developing a crush on my best friend, which makes me nervous because I don't want to "scare her off" if she senses that. I keep trying to drop subtle hints in everyday conversations and activities like when I was trying to fold a bed sheet I said "don't marry me, I suck at household stuff" and she did this half-laugh thing and sort of mumbled that there was no worry about it (kind of like an "I'm straight so I don't even need to keep that in mind" ordeal).
Anyway, I'm exhausted and would like to go to sleep, but if you need any information to answer my question, please ask. I hate not knowing who or what I am, it makes me feel untrue.
Thanks for your help!
An 18 year-old girl.
Recently, I've been hanging out with a healthy mix of gay and straight folks and I must admit that I couldn't relate to anything that the straight girls were talking about (nor a few things one of my good gay guy friends said). For one, they were all fawning over this one kid's muscular body, but I didn't get aroused when I saw him. Also, when they mention certain people at school who are hot or attractive, I always end up saying, "Really?? Him??" and then realized that there's nobody who I agree is hot.
In middle school, I had a lot of straight crushes, but in high school it's been both. I go back and forth between both and just girls for some reason (I don't know why it changed). I met a bisexual girl through theatre rehearsals and I ended up really liking her and hoping that she liked me, too, but nothing ever developed from that. I am rather unladylike in my ways often times (uncouth, as my mom likes to say), but I feel as if some girls are just like this sometimes.
I have also sort of started developing a crush on my best friend, which makes me nervous because I don't want to "scare her off" if she senses that. I keep trying to drop subtle hints in everyday conversations and activities like when I was trying to fold a bed sheet I said "don't marry me, I suck at household stuff" and she did this half-laugh thing and sort of mumbled that there was no worry about it (kind of like an "I'm straight so I don't even need to keep that in mind" ordeal).
Anyway, I'm exhausted and would like to go to sleep, but if you need any information to answer my question, please ask. I hate not knowing who or what I am, it makes me feel untrue.
Thanks for your help!
An 18 year-old girl.
