Post by kaelamarie on Nov 24, 2014 16:49:44 GMT -6
Hey everyone,
Lately, I've been feeling really depressed and doubtful of my sexuality. The reason is because my mother is making it seem like I only like girls because I had bad experiences with boys bullying and harassing me when I was younger; and how she wants to bring up my past crushes on boy, but that's all they were, just puppy love. When she berated me two Sundays ago, it seemed like she didn't want me to be happy in that area of my life; like she wants me to be lonely, miserable and single. With all this depression and doubt, I been having homophobic thoughts and being jealous of the gay people I know (especially couples) because they seem confident in their identity and who they love. I definitely wasn't like this at the beginning of the year, I was way more happy (I guess that was because I recently went to college and I don't know many of the people there). I would really like some advice on my situation.
[EDIT]
With me being depressed, it has led me to not love myself as well. Which actually prevents me from meeting friends and bottling up my feelings.
Lately, I've been feeling really depressed and doubtful of my sexuality. The reason is because my mother is making it seem like I only like girls because I had bad experiences with boys bullying and harassing me when I was younger; and how she wants to bring up my past crushes on boy, but that's all they were, just puppy love. When she berated me two Sundays ago, it seemed like she didn't want me to be happy in that area of my life; like she wants me to be lonely, miserable and single. With all this depression and doubt, I been having homophobic thoughts and being jealous of the gay people I know (especially couples) because they seem confident in their identity and who they love. I definitely wasn't like this at the beginning of the year, I was way more happy (I guess that was because I recently went to college and I don't know many of the people there). I would really like some advice on my situation.
[EDIT]
With me being depressed, it has led me to not love myself as well. Which actually prevents me from meeting friends and bottling up my feelings.
. But I was wondering how I can make my parents understanding of my situation? I've tried talking to my mother but she seems to think I'm a liar whenever I told her the stuff she's said. I'm thinking about writing a letter so she won't have to interrupt me, does this sound like a good idea?