Post by AlexJensen on May 27, 2015 15:25:09 GMT -6
Hi guys!
I'm Alex, or if you'd like something shorter, just Rex. I'm almost 16 (12 days until then) and a diligent high school student. I live in the middle of California, right in the center of the Sacramento Valley, and it's pretty nice here. I guess the only downside (other than the crazy weather recently- yikes!) is probably the fact that there's nothing here. Honestly, I haven't found a lick of LGBTQIA presence here. I have go to a school 45 minutes away, and even then there are only two people I know of that are part of the spectrum. It can be a little upsetting and lonesome, really.
That aside, I myself have struggled with this issue. Namely my gender and sexual orientation have been what's bugging me. It's not that fun to try to ease into the subject with your parents to have them shut a wall in front of you. So, I haven't been able to tell them everything. Especially not with their outlook on transgender and gay folk...
I believe that I'm genderfluid, which has not gotten much of a positive outlook from my mom. Discovering I might be asexual and biromantic is frustrating too, since I keep getting backhanded compliments from my family, my mother and older brother especially. My little brother is the only one I can talk to, but he still doesn't know. I'm too scared to talk about it.
I've been confused about this for 2 years now, and have pinned down my feelings with a couple of labels, but they might change... Everything seems so complicated.
Everything got a little worse when I got a crush on my best friend. It hurts how much I long for a relationship between us, but we're the same physical gender, so I can't tell anyone about my feelings- being thought of as gay in my family has been rejected many a time. What makes it worse is that she has a crush on an ex-boyfriend of mine. So now they're kinda together, and I'm trying to move on to someone new- hopefully a guy.
Maybe my family's summer vacation in a week will help get my mind off it. Now if only I knew what to do about it...
I'm Alex, or if you'd like something shorter, just Rex. I'm almost 16 (12 days until then) and a diligent high school student. I live in the middle of California, right in the center of the Sacramento Valley, and it's pretty nice here. I guess the only downside (other than the crazy weather recently- yikes!) is probably the fact that there's nothing here. Honestly, I haven't found a lick of LGBTQIA presence here. I have go to a school 45 minutes away, and even then there are only two people I know of that are part of the spectrum. It can be a little upsetting and lonesome, really.
That aside, I myself have struggled with this issue. Namely my gender and sexual orientation have been what's bugging me. It's not that fun to try to ease into the subject with your parents to have them shut a wall in front of you. So, I haven't been able to tell them everything. Especially not with their outlook on transgender and gay folk...
I believe that I'm genderfluid, which has not gotten much of a positive outlook from my mom. Discovering I might be asexual and biromantic is frustrating too, since I keep getting backhanded compliments from my family, my mother and older brother especially. My little brother is the only one I can talk to, but he still doesn't know. I'm too scared to talk about it.
I've been confused about this for 2 years now, and have pinned down my feelings with a couple of labels, but they might change... Everything seems so complicated.
Everything got a little worse when I got a crush on my best friend. It hurts how much I long for a relationship between us, but we're the same physical gender, so I can't tell anyone about my feelings- being thought of as gay in my family has been rejected many a time. What makes it worse is that she has a crush on an ex-boyfriend of mine. So now they're kinda together, and I'm trying to move on to someone new- hopefully a guy.
Maybe my family's summer vacation in a week will help get my mind off it. Now if only I knew what to do about it...