Post by courtneysvoice on Aug 12, 2015 12:48:56 GMT -6
Hi!
My name is Courtney, I'm an 18 writer and blogger. Throughout my life I have struggled with many things. Depression and PTSD, an eating disorder, a self harm addiction and suicidal tendencies, as well as struggling with my identity. From the time I can remember, I had crushes on girls and guys. But as I got older, I wasn't experiencing attraction to anyone the way the other kids were. I eventually learned what demisexual was, and finally felt like I wasn't alone in this struggle of identity. Then I found the term panromantic and it all seemed to make sense.
From the time I was four, I struggled with gender identity problems. I never wanted to be a guy per say, but I really didn't feel comfortable being a girl. I remember staring in the mirror and wanting to literally rip off everything about me that made me "girl." The older I got, the more those feelings grew. I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone about it. It wasn't until the beginning of this year that I finally got some answers, because I found out what genderfluid was. And realizing that I am genderfluid has been the biggest relief. I finally have answers and I don't feel alone. However I am still working on accepting myself and coming to terms with who I am. I have battled with many mental illnesses and self hate problems, so I feel like it will be a long journey to completely come to terms with myself. But I am starting, and thats all that matters.
My name is Courtney, I'm an 18 writer and blogger. Throughout my life I have struggled with many things. Depression and PTSD, an eating disorder, a self harm addiction and suicidal tendencies, as well as struggling with my identity. From the time I can remember, I had crushes on girls and guys. But as I got older, I wasn't experiencing attraction to anyone the way the other kids were. I eventually learned what demisexual was, and finally felt like I wasn't alone in this struggle of identity. Then I found the term panromantic and it all seemed to make sense.
From the time I was four, I struggled with gender identity problems. I never wanted to be a guy per say, but I really didn't feel comfortable being a girl. I remember staring in the mirror and wanting to literally rip off everything about me that made me "girl." The older I got, the more those feelings grew. I felt like I couldn't talk to anyone about it. It wasn't until the beginning of this year that I finally got some answers, because I found out what genderfluid was. And realizing that I am genderfluid has been the biggest relief. I finally have answers and I don't feel alone. However I am still working on accepting myself and coming to terms with who I am. I have battled with many mental illnesses and self hate problems, so I feel like it will be a long journey to completely come to terms with myself. But I am starting, and thats all that matters.