Post by behindsapphireeyes on Sept 3, 2015 7:03:11 GMT -6
All my life I've fallen in and out of what can only be described as depression. As a child in public school I was relentlessly bullied because of my apperance and the fact that I'm dyspraxic. Due to the onslaught of pain, which was inflicted on my heart till this day I remain disheartened towards socialization.
Recently, my boyfriend of 8 months broke up with me for the second time. He wasn't my first love, but I do love him. So...as we all know losing someone you love hurts like hell.
That same day my dog died too. So, I was already heartbroken and then that evening my boyfriend broke it off saying he needed to focus on himself and he didn't want to hurt me in the future. In the process of trying to not hurt me--you guessed it--he did. I'd never knew the feeling of a doubly broken heart until that day. All of that happened four days ago.
I've began to notice that I'm not happy or myself lately. I feel like a dark, dismal cloud. . .I've been trying to hold myself together, but the added stress from school doesn't help either.
I'm just tired of fighting, tired of emotional draining endeavors, tired of everything blowing up in my face.
Ultimately, I'm tired of never having a moment of happiness.
Recently, my boyfriend of 8 months broke up with me for the second time. He wasn't my first love, but I do love him. So...as we all know losing someone you love hurts like hell.
That same day my dog died too. So, I was already heartbroken and then that evening my boyfriend broke it off saying he needed to focus on himself and he didn't want to hurt me in the future. In the process of trying to not hurt me--you guessed it--he did. I'd never knew the feeling of a doubly broken heart until that day. All of that happened four days ago.
I've began to notice that I'm not happy or myself lately. I feel like a dark, dismal cloud. . .I've been trying to hold myself together, but the added stress from school doesn't help either.
I'm just tired of fighting, tired of emotional draining endeavors, tired of everything blowing up in my face.
Ultimately, I'm tired of never having a moment of happiness.