Confused and uncertain

So as my name may look like I am a Christian, but I am confused about myself a little bit. I am originally from Arkansas, not a lot of support in the LGBT there to begin with, but my mother isn't very supportive about homosexuality or things that to begin with, based on the time period she was raised and how she was raised I suppose. Well I'm 19 and I am in my first year in college, in Missouri, again, not a lot more support in the LGBT here either. Well, in my senior year in high school, I learned that I like to wear women's panties, and its a huge secret that I've told to one other person in my life and they are understanding. The problem is, I feel like I am betraying my faith in a way, I'm Baptist if that helps anyone to understand better. I also got my first bra the other day and that is also exciting. But, I feel like that every time I wear bras or panties, that I am betraying God and everything in my faith, as well as my ancestors. I mainly have two questions, one, what exactly does this make me, I don't like to go full feminine, just the undergarments, and second, how to ration out this feelings so that I don't feel like I'm betraying my faith? Thank you.