Post by starwarsfan on Aug 22, 2016 19:54:39 GMT -6
Hi, I'm starwarsfan, otherwise know as Mackenzie. I'm a 13 year old lesbian girl with one heck of a backstory, so buckle up!
I was raised in a ultra conservative household, and was, from birth (not kidding, my grandma turned my carrier around so I didn't see two girls kissing at the age of 3 weeks old) taught that gays were evil, and they would molest me, and rape me, mostly by my grandma, who is INCREDIBLY homophobic. I was also born with disabilitys, and I remember one time when my grandma said I'd be a "prime target for conversion by the gays", all because I can't see or hear too good. I was also taught by my grandpa that all gays needed, and I quote "a bullet in their heads, and a one way trip to hell". So yeah, when I finally figured out I was gay, then came the self loathing. I hated myself. I almost committed suicide 2 times. I never cut, but I would slam my head into the wall to try and fix my brain. I thought I was a freak, and that I needed to go to hell. To this day, no one in my family knows this. I have very recently come to terms with the fact I am normal. I'm still trying to figure everything out. I have not come out yet just because I may know my grandparents view of homosexuality, but I don't know my parents. They basically vote for anyone who has a R by their name. I have no idea what they believe. I mostly came here for a community, to find people like me and to make friends. I hope you guys like me.
I was raised in a ultra conservative household, and was, from birth (not kidding, my grandma turned my carrier around so I didn't see two girls kissing at the age of 3 weeks old) taught that gays were evil, and they would molest me, and rape me, mostly by my grandma, who is INCREDIBLY homophobic. I was also born with disabilitys, and I remember one time when my grandma said I'd be a "prime target for conversion by the gays", all because I can't see or hear too good. I was also taught by my grandpa that all gays needed, and I quote "a bullet in their heads, and a one way trip to hell". So yeah, when I finally figured out I was gay, then came the self loathing. I hated myself. I almost committed suicide 2 times. I never cut, but I would slam my head into the wall to try and fix my brain. I thought I was a freak, and that I needed to go to hell. To this day, no one in my family knows this. I have very recently come to terms with the fact I am normal. I'm still trying to figure everything out. I have not come out yet just because I may know my grandparents view of homosexuality, but I don't know my parents. They basically vote for anyone who has a R by their name. I have no idea what they believe. I mostly came here for a community, to find people like me and to make friends. I hope you guys like me.
